Ferrous, do you have sparkles in your eyes like in your gif?
You seem the type to have the sparkles.

Which probably means you're one of those damn dirty vampires!

>>382246

>>382247

I don't understand. Google isn't helping either.

>>382244
>OP's pic

Here's what I've learned this week.

Depression is one hell of a fucker and I really should keep self destructive behaviour in check.

Oh! And The Big 2 hate outside talent.

>>382249
Yeah this. I googled it expecting something embarrassing but didn't come up with anything.

Prepping for a long weekend of writing, pixel arting, not posting anything on the Internet, and planning for things I want to achieve/accomplish/whatever over the next seven years of my life.

FUCK Y'ALL NIGGAS GONNA DO

>>382246
>team edward

>>initiate relationship with person
>>person says they love you and are not interested in dating anyone else
>>person rejects all other offers of flirtation because they say they are with you
>>alone time with person
>>never actually get to do anything relationshippy
>>try to initiate affection but rarely get reciprocated
>>little part of you thinks person is using you as inverse beard, that you are lesbian but she is not and she is just trying to avoid the guys that hit on her a lot because they are all the creepy, desperate, or way older than her type

>>382265
Or maybe she's just not an affectionate person. Either way, you should take this up with her at some point. Screw up your courage.

>>382265
Go through & say all that just to try & stop guys she doesn't deem attractive from hitting on her?

Really?

>She said she was bi!

>>382269
Guys seem to think all the good girls are lesbian. The lesbians know this is not accurate.

>>382267
It's not that they're not attractive, they're creepy and/or twice as old as her. She and I are still in that age where guys our age are like, "So, you're the only woman that'll talk to me. When are we having sex?"

>>382266
I might have to. I trust her enough to know she won't cheat, but we barely talk anymore, I rarely see her, and she seems tired and annoyed when I do.

Pretending to be gay or whatever just so guys won't hit on you seems stupid. I sincerely doubt that's her intention. Maybe you should talk to her about it or something, find out what's really going on. I don't really think anyone is going to go through all that trouble to avoid the opposite sex.

My new fan is almost too powerful. I have to occasionally turn it off, because I'm freezing.

welp

>>382274

>>382274
i'm sorry, man.

>>382270
>The lesbians know this is not accurate.
Well it may not be accurate, but it is precise.

>>382274
Seriously? Man that sucks

RAN RAN RUUUUUU
red lantern anon and i are off to meet with some nerds in la.

i bet you're jealous. i bet you wish you were us. i bet you wish you were watching pacific rim right now.

>>382274
:(

So I was fappin just now to some dom/sub shit, and I had a sort of strange thought.

Is th reason you rarely ever black people doing this shit because they're uncomfortable with the slave/master dialogue? You never see a big sub black guy in these things.../

>>382283
Have you even looked?

http://www.xvideos.com/video646129/black_slave_bdsm_training

>>382283

Isn't this more for the sex thread? Also, Kink's various sites have it. Any lack of representation you see is probably because there aren't a lot of black people in porn, compared to white people, that is.

>>382284

Speak of the devil. Also, that's Coffee Brown, IIRC. I think she's pretty.

>>382285
>Coffee Brown
Black is black you don't have to qualify it, we don't call the president "coffee brown" do we?

You know what, I'm sick of this kind of under the table racism.

>>382286

Obama is more of a caramel.

Also, that's her pornstar name. Just in case anyone takes this exchange seriously.

>Also, that's her pornstar name.
Mah bad.

>>382289

S'cool. NSFW link under the spoiler:

http://www.kink.com/k/model/17352-Coffee-Brown.html?c=1

I sent one of my friends a gif displaying the north pole melting. Had this exchange.
>Oh yeah, I've seen that before, pretty interesting. Doesn't mean it's *~GLOBAL WARMING~* though.
>Wait, are you denying global warming?
>Yeah.
>...R-really?
>Yeah.
>...
>It's happened before, you know.
>...
>The north pole's melted before, there just wasn't a fuss about global warming at the time, so no one cared.
>...
I was probably a dick for just leaving him hanging but I was seriously dumbstruck. I...didn't know that was a thing that people who weren't 60 year old politicians believed. Even now I'm not sure what to say about it, I just kind of dropped the subject entirely.
>>382274
Shit, man.
I'm sorry.

>>382271
>>382277
The reason I questioned it is because there have been times when she said she wasn't really into girls at all, and sometimes when she's said she was bi. I prefer guys too, but I get along with girls better personality-wise, and she's been really good with actually letting the relationship progress naturally. Some of my ex-boyfriends just wanted to jump straight into sex, and weren't interested in me unless sex was potentially involved. I'm going to stay with her and see how this rides out.

on one hand i rly want a cute girlfriend but on the other hand i should probably just give up already and become a full time dominatrix

why resist my destiny

>>382291
If you consider that stunning you need to get out of the suburbs once in awhile.
Half the population of the planet (3.3 billion) is statistically below 100 IQ, that's barely enough to know how to do high school math. Of the remaining half that can understand it, how many even give enough of a shit about climate change to read a single journal article on it?

I bet you can take every single person on the planet who both cares about and understands global warming, and put them on one of these:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2175222/Iceberg-twice-size-Manhattan-breaks-away-Greenlands-largest-glacier.html
The human race will be fully carbon neutral long before Average Joe can see obvious effects of it with his own eyes. Panicking laymen with doom and gloom predictions is beyond pointless.

So don't be surprised or shocked anymore, and stop expecting all your friends to be smart or well informed.

Consider this little factoid, if you really want to blow your socks off: the vast majority of the planet still considers homosexuality a mental illness illegal in 76 countries and suppressed heavily in 83 others. Can't blame that one on IQ.

>>382293
Only if you get your red hair back.

>>382294
Yeah yeah I know all that, I have friends who dropped out of school when they were 12, I guess I'd just always considered global warming like...really blatant fact? I guess that is kind of a sheltered view to take but I've seriously never met anyone who wouldn't acknowledge it, even the super religious right-wingers who are generally ignorant about things like that accepted it as a "sign of the end-times."
And this was a pretty educated guy who should by all means know better.

Also I grew up in the ghetto, don't be makin' assumptions.

>>382295
Dude that's nothing, I had a friend question gravity. Fucking GRAVITY. Said we stay on earth because it's magnetic. I shit you not.

>$500 video card now potentially a brick

well that'll teach me to have bad air circulation in the case

Thank God FTL is kind of really neato. Wish I could optimize the internal layouts though

>>382295
While I think there's some kernel of truth to the "some summers are just hotter than others" belief, I agree, global warming definitely exists, and it doesn't make the hotter summers any easier.

No one even uses "global warming" as a term the same way.

Everyone's a fucking idiot. Don't bother.

Whatever we call it and whatever might cause it, it's definitely happening, it has never happened before and it's already too late to make it stop from happening. See you at the end times, guys.

>>382302

Going by average life statistics, most of us probably have like 60ish years left on this rock anyway. We wouldn't have seen end times.

>>382294
what's wrong with black hair? i think it suits me :c

>>382304
As a domme? Red hair for sure.

You can only pull off black hair domme if you're an older lady.

>>382305
Dang. Well, at least I don't have green hair any more.

>>382306
But then you'd be able to put on a blue Snuggie and you'd look like a Lemming!

>>382307
weirdly enough, that's not really a look i've ever aspired to

>>382306
>green hair
pics or it didn't happen

>>382309
It was more teal than true green. and yes i know i look like a gross corpse in this, it's basically the only pic i have with this hair, pls excuse I only had it for December/January. I have long black hair now.

Everybody stop thinking about bad stuff for a few minutes and be excited about the future instead:
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/special-report-in-vitro-beef--its-the-meat-of-the-future-8735104.html

>>382311
It would actually be easier with human cells, only issue is the squick factor...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HeLa

>>382310
>corpse
You could be a mistress for necrophiliacs.

>>382312
I usually look a bit healthier than that, I don't think I'd be able to get enough customers. Also fun fact: I naturally run a tiny bit warmer than the ideal body-temp, I just couldn't get the chill of the grave thing right.

That feel when you realize the reason why you hate a person passionately is because they remind you of yourself.

And you're a total dick.

I figured out why Scotland's symbol is a unicorn.

They all think they're special snowflakes but really they're just a horse trussed up in mystic power shit so far up their arse they gave a stone magic sitting powers

oh hai tooth you should probably just go with the girlfriend thing.

>>382316
You seem upset about something, anon. Would you like to talk about it?

>>382318
Not much really

First world problems, no food allowed before physical at 5pm so I've only eaten water all day and now the hawaiian pizza I ordered is taking its sweet ass time getting here

Seriously, though, just smash the rock into gravel and scatter it in a nameless field. No one is king of Scotland anymore and you never have to make a terrible movie starring Aerghie Hortwit and Forshborsh Rrgenho about stealing it again.

>>382318
Not much really

First world problems, no food allowed before physical at 5pm so I've only eaten water all day and now the hawaiian pizza I ordered is taking its sweet ass time getting here

Seriously, though, just smash the rock into gravel and scatter it in a nameless field. No one is king of Scotland anymore and you never have to make a terrible movie starring Aerghie Hortwit and Forshborsh Rrgenho about stealing it again.

>>382319
...but anon, the Stone of Destiny is used in every British coronation. It was first used for Scottish kings but then was used for the rest of the UK too. The current Queen even used it in her coronation. Scotland doesn't have a king but we do have a Queen. Also it's not magic, it just has biblical connections.

>>382321
Well the movie about the Stone of Buttered Scones for Tea was going on about MUH STONE every five minutes like it was a national tragedy

And you're always going on about, "ooh loo loo fuck the brits where's me irn bru" so i assumesd this mattered to you

oh cool pizzas here

>>382322
Meh, I've never seen the movie. I think the stone is a cool part of British history but yeah, it belongs in Scotland until it's needed. No-one really thinks or cares about it much.

Also wanting autonomy for my country doesn't quite equate to "fuck the Brits". I primarily just want us to be governed by people we voted for, ok?

>>382302

>Whatever we call it and whatever might cause it
>it's definitely happening
>it has never happened before
>and it's already too late to make it stop from happening.

See, each of those points tells me that you are also a fucking idiot who doesn't know what they're even talking about, thus proving my point once again that everyone is a fucking idiot and I shouldn't bother.

>>382314
Stop making me want to move to Scotland, the weather is shit.

>>382323
>I want autonomy but I dont want to be too much a bother you know when they can get around to it
Dude, don't be Canada. Canada is the Nice Guy of the planet. Everyone goes on about how sweet he is and how his countryside is lovely, and then gets plowed by American companies with Canada in the back holding his Kraft dinner thinking the music's too loud.

God I love this Pizza.

>>382326
Oh, the weather's not so bad. In the west it's wet but mild, in the east it's cold but dry. We've had a cracking summer, it's been in the high twenties for weeks now.

>>382327
??????
Are you expecting some Scots to firebomb Westminster or something? It's a gradual diplomatic process, which has been unfortunately hindered by the heavily anti-independence media. People are not rioting in the streets about it.

>>382329
>are you expecting us to firebomb Westminister
I don't know should we expecting it?
What do you know about the Westminister plot? I want names, addresses and a English/Scottish translator, or else we bring in Jo Brand...

I gave away TZ today. He was getting bored since I don't play with him anymore and I didn't want him to just disappear. I'm kind of sad, actually. But he has a good home.

im supposed to go on a trip like next week that ive been planning for a while with a friend but thanks to a lot of monetary setbacks, i havent been able to save up for. ill have enough money to go but its going to set me back financially like everywhere else, which is frustrating. the deal is that this is a big group trip? And I dont really know anyone but my one friend so... i dont know. i don't want to back out but spending 200-250$ on this just makes me uncomfortable too. uuugh

Talk to your friend Nurse. Admitting your fears and monetary troubles are not sonething to feel guilty about. If you go, just be careful with your cash. If you don't start saving for an I.O.U. on going somwhere fun with your friend, and give youself a deadline of six months to save for it. Either way you're practicing your budget management and being honest with your friends about your concerns. People do appreciate occasional candidness.

oh boy oh boy oh boy I get to see my sweet baboo for the first time in two months this week
oh boy oh boy oh boy
we're gonna bang EVERYWHERE ALL THE TIME and we're gonna go see PACIFIC RIM and we might even take a road trip to the intersection of INYO and BUTTE
OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY

>>382348

>afraid of pulling out

Gotta get that money, gurl. Half of that is not spending money.

>hyperextension in my entire left arm from shoulder to fingers

>>382354
How did you manage that? Exercise gone wrong?
.....I would try to make a quip about how you injured arm in in a badass way, but I hurt my arm myself today.

Damn ladder slipped out from under me. Then I fell on top of the ladder. Dented one of the steps as a result. I'm tired.

>>382356
I wish it was something badass. I was walking my aunt's stupid dog and dropped my bracelet, and when I bent down to pick it up she spotted another dog and tried to attack. Weird angle + weird hold on the lead (to pick up my bracelet) + large dog throwing herself full force at something = lead got caught up around my hand, wrenched my arm so hard I thought I had dislocated my shoulder. To make it worse it was an extending lead so she really manged to get some momentum going first, but amazingly enough I managed to stay on my feet - barely. My shoulder and elbow are really stiff and my wrist and fingers are swollen, and I pulled the muscles in my forearm and back. It's not exceptionally sore unless I do certain actions but it's really weak and sort of useless. I use that hand for almost everything, it's a very bizarre sensation having almost no power in it suddenly. It should be fine soon though, no tears or anything.

One of the worst things about having a relaxed office environment and work schedule is that I can putz around at work too much and also take off when I feel like it. And I've love to just leave right now because I have zero inclination to live today, but if I give into that every time it happens I'll wind up only putting in half the hours I need to every period.

And all I would do is just go home and play TF2 half-heartedly for hours. It's not even continuously fun anymore (I'll have a few moments of fun here and there), it's just the "default" for what I do when I'm not at work.

Oh boy I do love having waves of depression.

Work has been great. Just visited my parents for a week, and all is well on that end.

Money stuff? Not so much. All of my big bills hit in June and July, because I moved to CO during the summer. A three weekends ago, my water heater lost structural integrity and I had to get a new one. Two weekends before that, I had to get my car fixed and start the stressful process of trying to find a new car, because the one I'm driving now is 14 years old. I came home from the vacation to find that my cat's other eye is flaring up a bit and is off-and-on kinda weepy/boogery.

I like my life, and I was hoping it was getting a bit better, but Life has apparently decided to stab me in the money bag this year.

took a great trapeze class surrounded by amazingly fit gorgeous women everywhere.

...

holy fuck. i make good life choices.

>>382362
nevermind the good choices thing. i felt self-conscious about my moderately hairy physique and decided to shave down to look more circus-ready. ... cuts. cuts everywhere. i am 27 and what is this?

The worst part about my job is when I get a really great, interesting assignment, and I can't save a copy of my work for myself :(

>>382365

>can't save a copy of my own work

Unless you work for the government, this is probably false.

>>382364
a mistake.

a terrible, terrible mistake.

>>people I like are fighting
>>both have their points
>>but both/their friends also said shitty things to each other
>>send "I'm sorry people are being shitty to you" messages to both of them
>>feel like a hypocrite but feel at the same time I just want them to stop fighting and either ignore each other or talk it out privately

>>382368
>people I like are fighting
:D
>but both/their friends also said shitty things to each other
Oh, with words :(

>>382366
Well...sometimes it's that, but right now I mean I physically, or at least technically can't. There's no function in the software for that, and everything is saved onto the company's host server sooooo, I don't got anyway to make a copy for my own purposes.

>>382369
I just hate fights, period. Two people I care about, yelling at each other (about what, I have no idea, 99% of the time), threatening each other...I've walked in on two people, one threatening to bludgeon one with a lamp, the other about to stab the other with a kitchen knife. Scary stuff.

>>382370
Honestly if you've never swung at anyone with a meat cleaver I'm not sure you're technically allowed to call them your friend? I'll ask my lawyer friends about the legality of that.

I'm sorry they're fighting, that always sucks.

>volunteer for my organization gets arrested
>grandmother becomes more and more paranoid every day
>I catch something respiratory but can't afford to take the day off

>Lady tumbling about how their boobs are getting bigger

Clearly I picked the best people to follow on tumblr.

>>382370
Yeah, no, the :D was hoping this was like...two people you like are following queensbury rules or something...That happens a lot with people I like.

>>382367
don't get me started
don't even get me started

>>382376
But were there pictures.
Naked pictures.

>>382375
This is only funny if you know what a krebs cycle is.

http://collarfactory.com/

wait wait wait

wait

there's a website dedicated to making collars for people?

that's weird and also sexy

I can finally avoid pulling a Tannis when a dude on the street hits on me.

Brain drugs are pretty great. \o/

>Brother and neighbor drunk off their asses
>Brother keeps trying to burn my shit
>Literally have to shove them both out of my room
>Twice
>Stuck in my room with the door locked to avoid them

Already regretting not going to my sister's tonight

>>382390
Wouldn't everything and everyone be on fire if you had gone there, though?

>>382392
This was my thought, as well.

Speakin' of tumblr, boy do I regret deletin' mine.
:T

myep.

>never been in a relationship
>think i'll have happy basement virgin life forever
>find out I'm equally bi
>ok whatever
>oh shit wait what boyfriend and he's amazing how did this happen

>>382395

Well that's what happens when you goad people who are threatening suicide on the internet (yes, everyone on Party All The Time saw the whole blow-up as it happened).

Also hating Guy Gardner didn't help your case either.

But part of growing up is making bad decisions and learning from them, I reckon.

How. How could you hate Guy Gardner.

DID SOMEONE SAY SUICIDE BAIT

I THOUGHT I HEARD SOMEONE SAY SUICIDE BAIT

LOOK YOU AREN'T ALLOWED TO SAY SUICIDE BAIT AND NOT TELL THE WHOLE THING OK

>>382400

>>382384
No, it's still pretty funny otherwise.

Long ago, there was a village that was afraid of dragons. Deathly afraid of dragons, with their fire, and teeth, and hunger for the young and beautiful.

In this chaos, a knight stood up and said 'I shall save us all, and kill the dragon!' and the people cheered for the knight and threw everything to the knight.

The knight began the dragon-killing plan with a hunt for dragon enablers. Sheepherders kept their flock in town, so the dragon would starve, but the knight would hunt game for the town. The lumberjacks would stay behind, while the knight did the work, for the dragon was afraid of the knight, but gobbled up lumberjacks. And any and all information about the dragon must go to the knight directly, for the dragon could not counter the knight.

Then the village grew hungry, because the sheep could not feed, but they were happy because the dragon was far away. They grew cold, because there was not enough lumber for their fires, but they were happy because the dragon was far away. They grew scared, because the knight was not always there to inform to, but they were happy because the dragon was far away. For a while.

Then the people of the village and grew restless one day, when the knight was gone for a long time. 'We must make solutions that fit our new dragon-safe lives. Let us send hunters out with bows of their own to gather food. Let us make wood from trees far away from the dragon's wood. Let us make towers for scouts to stand guard while the knight is away. Now we are ready for any dragon, thanks to that knight.'

Then after a long time, the knight came back and saw the towers, and the traveling woodcutters, and the hunters. But, instead of being happy, the knight flew into a terrible rage. 'WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!?!" roared the knight. "I TOLD YOU THAT I ALONE COULD PROTECT YOU!!!"

'But good knight,' said one young lad, 'your plans are smart but they require more changes for when you are away, so w-'

The boy never finished his sentence as the knight decapitated the boy right there. The people screamed, WHY??? WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?!?

"He was a spy to the dragon," firmly replied the knight, "as were all who supported these ideas. Open fields attract dragons, so only trees deep in forests may be found by me. Towers taunt dragons with their hieght, ans lookouts can be bribed by dragon gold. Hunters are easy prey for dragons when they have no armor like me!"

The people were surprised! Dragon spies? Thrn the knight drew his sword, and slayed the hunters, woodcutters and scouts, and proclaimed the villainous spies were no more. Then the village asked, but where will we get our meat and wood now, and who will inform us of dragons? The knight laughed, and produced a large sack. "Fear not! I have fulfilled my promise! I have slayed many dragons, and brought back supplies!"

The sack held three logs and a dead boar.

"But, brave Knight, the village needs more than that to survive. Winter is coming, and our supplies are low!" cried a peasant.

The knight scoffed, "That's plenty! I don't need anywhere near that much, so you can survive on that if you are clever. If you need more, grow vegetables in the winter!"

"Can we eat dragon meat? Surely you've slayed a fresh one, escort us to the dragon, and we'll take the meat!"

"No!" shouted the knight, "dragon meat is evil. One bite will turn you into a dragon yourself! Besides, the last one I slew was far away, too far for you to travel. I know you are hungry, but only I can save you from dragons!"

With that, the knight headed off to the wood to hunt for dragons, and the villagers grew uneasy.

Winter was cruel, the sheep they kept for wool died, and they ate the rest. The wood from people's homes stoked the few remaining fires and family fought to keep their homes from the flame. Finally, only town hall reamined, and the hungry, angry people huddled together. The fear of dragons left them, and was replaced with a hate of their knight.

Where was that miserable showoff anyway? Leaving the village to starve... not to mention killing all our best men to stop dragons we never see. Hmph! I bet the knight has never fought a single dragon before! Why, if I had dragon meat, I'd gobble it up turn into a dragon to pay that knight a visit! Just you wait, knight, just you wait...

Springtime, and months in the wilderness hunting for dragons had made the knight nostalgic, and so made the long journey back to the village. When the knight arrived though, something was wrong. The buildings were torn up, the plants were unkempt, the walls were in disrepair.

"Villagers! Your knight has returned! Hear of all the tales of slaying-"

A bestial horrible creature climbed into viee from behind one of the buildings, creaking the wood with its massive scaly form.

A dragon! The knight gasped, and drew sword. The day had arrived, and the first dragon to slay was-

A deafening roar and jet of flame rocketed to the knight, who raised a shield... that promptly melted. The knight was shocked, that shield been forged to protect against dragons specifically, surely it would work.

Then the knight saw them. From out of the ruins of the village rose a horde of hungry dragons, 20, 30 strong. The knight's courage left, and the knight began to run, only to be caught by the biggest dragon, a sickly green and smelling terrible. With a flick of its claw, the armor broke off, and the dragons gathered at the terrified human inside. Then the dragons grabbed the knight, and raped her, fistbumping and popping back brewskis and not one of them checked their privilege.

The former knight was chained to the dragon's main pillar, as they poured over the land, to feed, collect and take the world for dragons forever.

And they all lived happily ever after.

>>382398
Yeah, I know everyone saw. No surprise there, man.

But yeah. I know I fucked up there.
Issued the appropriate Mea Maxima Culpa as well.

As for Guy, I had just read one of his more extreme douchebag moments in JLA. 'S all.

>>382388
>pulling a Tannis
>Tannis

What?

>>382406
It's when you rub your finger around a guys butthole while at the same time jerking him off into his own face.

>>382406
Pretty sure it's a reference to the Borderlands character.

>>382409
>>382410

i wonder which one of you is telling the truth

>>382411
The one that thinks they're lying is accidentally correct, the other is wrong. I have no idea, actually.

>>382412
>>382411
Suppose there are two identical twin brothers, one who always lies and the other who always tells the truth.....

>>382404
is no one going to talk about this post? this is a post that's worth talking about.

>>382395
based on what mindwipe is saying, you were making turd-burger weenie posts, so you can feel pretty secure that nothing of value was lost.

>>382414
don't talk about the post
don't read the post
forget the post

>>382415
THIS is what i was expecting after that post.

thank you.

i'm too used to tumblr rage.

Sup.

>>382417
I thought Bea slew you in her mad quest for power.

>>382418
not anymore because she's busy as a bea get it

>>382414
I'm glad the art of horrible, crude, raunchy, insensitive folk stories is still alive and happily wait for it to get heavily sanitized and stuffed in a children's book like any other fairy tale.

>>382422
I thought it was a story about the NSA.

>>382417
>bard
>alive
>HERE
What mad sorcery is this?

http://stephentstone.tumblr.com/post/57027779424/accountability-report-july-2013
http://stephentstone.tumblr.com/post/57028048457/july-creation-challenge-report

And now I go back to lurking and whatnot.

Today I feel sad but tomorrow I will feel better.

>>382418
>>382426
No I was just on a life quest.

>>382430
Tell us of your strange travels.

The dragons are Patriarchy.

>>382433
thanks i don't think we ever would have caught that
would you say that it was your... privilege to explain that to us?

>>382414
Eh, couldn'tve been worse than your stuff Nightie.

What is the consensus on reaction images on the NSFW boards? I feel like I'm eating potential content slots. But some, if not most, of the threads don't actually make it to image cap.

>>382436
They're fine if used in moderation.

>>382435
uh huh.

>>382438
>>382435
Shut up.
You're both beaner dorks.

>>382432
Filipino food is good, Order the PBS if you get a chance.
The Pacific North west is far prettier than California.
Never lose momentum.
Go outside.

>>382418
>>382419
been too busy to keep bard from escaping from his crystal prison

Can't say I can argue, there.

>>382441
feed bard the skeleton jelly

>>382441
shes e-boning the new boyfrand

>>382441
Please don't put me back in the boo box.

Hey who has a link to that thing bea is writing? With the Trebuchet MS and whatnot? Post it again.

The level of our technology is getting incredible...yet our applications seem to be getting worse and worse.

I've been trawling /lgbt/ discussibg controversial gay and lesbian situations, desigining fake people questioning their place in the community and asking for advice and help. I wouldn't call it trolling, but I do break ideas of what is standard in the generals.

I'm doing this because, in a way, people love to correct others being wrong. By testing the waters of analyzing sexual identity, I get a better understaning of the lgbt community than I would waddling in asking what gender dysphoria is like outright. Emotional responses add a second layer of expression to them in ways I never hear them talk about to my face.

It's also helping me write these sort of characters beyond my own paper-thin approach. Yeah, it's underhanded to lie about whether I actually exist as these test characters I make, but is anyone really hurt giving advice to a fake person when all they're talking about before that is cats?

>Place an order at an online store
>Sale on the things you bought with free shipping starts a day later

It's settled. I'm never buying anything at the end of the month again.

>>382441
You fool! Do you know what you unleashed?!

SYM I'm going to vegas this weekend, What do?

>>382457
something fallout related

>>382457
turn 360 degrees and moonwalk out of there. las vegas is the worst place i have ever been to. i mean yeah that's probably something to do with the fact i don't gamble...but you also get electric shocks off of everything and everywhere is really cheap and gross and tacky even the mega ~luxurious~ casinos and hotels and it was just generally depressing.

>>382459
This, its cheap disposable "fun" for people who can't imagine anything better.

On the other hand, I've been to places with no civilization and had more fun there, so maybe it's just me.

TWO THINGS TO DO IN VEGAS
GO SEE CIRQUE DU SOLEIL SHOWS
INDOOR SKY DIVING
(OUTSIDE VEGAS IS GOOD ROCK CLIMBING)

THAT IS IT.

EAT AT THE BUFFETS THAT ARE SUBSIDIZED BY PEOPLE THAT ARE BAD AT MATH.

THERE IS NOTHING IN VEGAS. IT'S ALMOST AS BAD AS RENO.

>>382446

aghoststorycomic.com
here u go

>>382459
and yet its one of the few places on earth that DON'T put hookers in jail.

>>382464
>one of the few places on earth that doesn't jail hookers
>almost every civilized country and a whole bunch of shit ones have legalised or at least decriminalised prostitution

i'm assuming you meant to tag on "in the us" on that

>>382424
It quite possibly is, though I figured it was a portrayal of paranoid, controlling, overprotective organizations in general.

>>382464
>>382465
Prostitution has never been illegal in Canada for example, even back when it was just a shit colony. Although it is illegal to advertise prostitution since that part falls under anti public lewdness laws, and it is illegal to be a pimp since that falls under anti exploitation laws.

So it's just very hard to do it as a profession, but escorts and stay at home spouses aren't thrown in jail for it.

>>382464
prostitution is illegal in clark county actually lol

>>382467
Yup. Over here you can be a prostitute but you can't be a streetwalker/solicit folk and you can't run a brothel/be a pimp. It's mostly done online via places like Adult World. It's all pretty civilised actually.

>>382470

the bunny ranch is 10 hours away

actual fun things to do in vegas:
drink
leave

>>382470
actually the bodies exhibit is super cool.

>>382465
Ah. Right. Probably.

Yknow, like most of my shit,
living in a 3rd world country bogs your standards to pretty much 'everything is shit'

Or I dunno.

Vegas is pretty fun if you're going for a work conference and don't have to really spend any money.

So much free booze. Played the quarter slots and won a few hundred bucks. Walked around downtown at night for a while. Was rad. Wouldn't pay to go tho.

>>382475
Ah yeah the Vegas morgue

guess who has two thumbs and is dropping out of university to become a rambling vagrant and possibly move to australia to live with distant relatives

this guy

>>382482
you're dropping out of uni?

>>382482
ö

oh wow jelly

wish i could do something half as non-routine.

>>382483
i should never have came here

>>382485
i say that about plus4chan pretty often, yeah
why do you say that?

>>382482
>possibly move to australia

>>382486
because i chose a degree in a subject i need enjoyed nor had any particular talent in. also i'm just not mentally in the right place to do something like a 4 year masters and subsequently my mental health has been deteriorating rapidly.

>>382487
i don't like the use of that bolton gif

are you anywhere near perth?

>>382488
Well! From what I've been told Aussies are usually either hunky adonis-type blokes or hunky bear-mode-ish South Pacific bros.

You'll have plenty fun there.

>>382452
This is pretty much how I feel about Steam.

>>382488
>implying people jump from bachelors into masters, them immediately to doctorate
Very few people are that autistic.

Most people have a 5-10 year hiatus between levels, during which they relax, accrue monies, experience, or start a family.

>>382489
Have you been to Florida? It's pretty much the same aside from the accent.

>>382494
>Very few people are that autistic.

I wanted to. I don't have much of a life outside of academia.

I also kinda want to be an English professor, so yeah.

>>382494
>implying i implied that

the degree i'm currently doing is straight-off-the-bat a masters in applied languages and translation. it's a four year course. i don't have a bachelors, just my secondary school qualifications.

>>382495
Good job anon I like you.

>>382494
>Have you been to Florida? It's pretty much the same aside from the accent.
Are you saying that "Florida is also like what you just said," or that "What you just said is wrong, Australia is basically no better than Florida?" Because Florida is definitely not like what he just said.

>>382468
At first I was about to ask if you checked personally.

Then I imagined a grizzly bear in fishnets and high heels on a corner in the red light district. So that's what this post is about now. Bear Prostitutes.

>>382494

>no one goes straight from high school straight into college then straight into a master's then straight into a doctorate

hi

>>382501
o hi frand hi
i'm writing my first first-authorship paper right now... and man i do not like my data.
gotta get that paper to get that PhD tho


also for the record my tumblr is way awesome and everyone can go be babies actually it's a bunch of walls of text and pacific rim reblogs i don't know why anyone follows me

>>382494

>Very few people are that autistic.

;_; I just really liked learning new things in school okay

>>382502
i like the pacific rim reblogs
and the meditations
>>382503
nerd

Ironically I guess I'm the least autistic person here, since I worked for four years between my bachelors and doctorate. B)

>>382500

bear prostitutes?! only for the bravest of people.....

>>382488
>perth

oh god you're actually going to do it. you're going to hook up with barbie aren't you?

>>382507
The event we've all been waiting for....

>>382507
no

i just corrected a presbyterian minister's understanding of darwinism over the internet.

this is not going to go well.

>>382509
means yes

I learned two things about socializing recently:
1. I spend too much goddamn time jerking it to hentai and browsing 4chan than I really ever should.
2. When I don't have internet access, I'm happier, I sleep longer, and I socialize more.

I need to seriously cut down on my computer time and socialize or I'm going to be miserable. Only, I don't know where to start. Maybe a rule that I don't go back to my dorm until it's dark out, to avoid sitting around on the computer?

>>382488
>are you anywhere near perth?

ok see the thing about australian gerography is unless you are actually in Perth then you are nowehere even remotely near Perth.

What's the point of advertising how great the college's pool is if you're only letting children in the day camp use it, not the students on campus for the summer?

>>382516
yeah i was talking by aussie standards of distance.

>>382518
im a 28 hour drive away

(i know this because i found a lifesize velociraptor for sale in perth and i was weighing up if i could drive over there and pick it up. no, no i cant)

>>382519
how is it even possible to drive for 28 hours and not just launch directly into space
i refuse to believe that much land actually exists all in a row

>>382520

Driving at 70mph for 28 hours straight is less than 2000 miles. Australia is about 2500 from coast-to-coast, as the crow (deathclawed, poisonous, hellbeast Australian crow) flies.

And yes, that distance is hard to conceive. It would be like crossing Europe from Paris to Moscow. The USA is slightly bigger, as is China; compared to Australia there is also a lot more there other than deserts and animals created by Satan.

>>382520
I shit you notwhile i was looking at the route i found a stretch thats a perfectly straight line for 2.5 whole fucking hours. then you veer slightly to the right and go in another straight line for 1.5 hours. and i dont mean just heading in the same direction, these are fucking arrow straight sections of road

>>382521
its not as the crow flies driving from Adelaide to Perth. you acutally have to drive north for 3-4 hours before turning west.

oh and for half of that drive civilisation will consist of only gas stations spaced at regular intervals based on the average fuel capacity of a car.

after seeing america i can understand how foreigners just cant quite fathom it. the flight i took from LA to San Diego probably wouldn't even get me to the nearest major town here

>>382522
and the odd thing is when i was in america i didn't feel comfortable at first with how big and spaced out and flat and empty things were. it felt creepy. i come from a tiny country that doesn't have a single flat bit in it, straight roads are an entirely foreign occurrence for me and even then it takes like 3 hours to get to the other side of the country. australia would be even worse...

>>382515
Take laptop to cafes, computer in the open.

The balance between socializing and being alone is an important one

>>382526
Just don't go jerking it to hentai in that cafe. That's usually frowned upon, socially.

I think I've gotten used to the terrain here

I mean, not strictly that its flat. This place is kinda known for having a wowload of mountains, and I live on the skirts out a mountain myself.

But its so different city-wise to any other city I've lived in or been to.
Yknow everythings just so big here
But i kinda dont mind it or something i dunno

i mean it helps i've lived here for like, an accumulated 10 years I think?

Day one, horse paintings are majestic

>>382529
Now you tell me.

>crush mosquito in hand
>open hand
>mosquito flies away
What are you made of?! Also why do underwear elastics bunch up over time?

>>382533
>What are you made of?!
A small frame that can survive in a clasped hand between lifelines.

>Also why do underwear elastics bunch up over time?
Heat in driers (and washers to a lesser extent) distort the elasticity. Wash in cold water, tumble dry. (Your underwear will have cryptic symbols that tell you how to properly wash it to save the elastic, though you'll probably have to look this up online to find out what they mean.)

I am pretty sure my boyfriend's little brother has a bizarre thing for me (no, really fucking sure) and it's causing a serious rift in their relationship and last night I got to sit sandwiched between them screaming at each other. They are both large, drinking men with loud voices, and after his brother apologized to me and told me I'm an 'amazing lady' and I shouldn't have to deal with that and went in for a hug and then froze because my boyfriend stumbled in the room. the sad thing is he gets pretty obvious with this secret romance shit when he's drunk and/or stoned, and my boyfriend is too drunk and/or stoned to notice, and I'm too drunk and/or stoned to do anything. I mean, the three of us and our two friends are kind of a little friend-family and we're all pretty close, and there's no way this situation won't eventually implode.

so that's going on

time to make soup

>>382535
go full 'the dreamers' but with less attempted suicide and french civil unrest

>>382535
love triangles almost drove me to end it all
i don't recommend them
at all

>>382535
>getting drunk and stoned in that situation
OK this is when you start thinking if date rape is something you want in your future.

>>382536
if only

>>382537
no, its really fucking discouraging. I talked to my man last night after the anger was over, and he was talkng about how he does care about his brother, how they used to hang out all the time, and now his brother doesn't seem to give a shit about him and aughghghhh

most of their fights are about me. he fractured my wrist. he doesn't take me out anywhere nice enough. he didn't buy me orange juice. his brother stares at me and hugs me and buys me drinks and makes up drunk rap songs about me and is just insanely considerate and sweet to me all the time, and then he turns around and lunges at my boyfriend.

>>382538
not even close, it's when we're just sitting around with our mutual friends in our house. the brother is nothing but gentle to me. I'm only afraid of them hurting each other.... brothers, you know?

>>382540
this might sound like I'm telling you to not give a crap but its not


let them work it out

if they're as close as you say, they'll reach an understanding.

>>382540
Why Not Both?

knock their heads together then have them kiss and make up

with tongue

>>382543
>>382542
>lets impose our fantasies on others

>>382541
yeah i think im just gonna >>382543

>>382542
he's got a small dick. attractive, but small dick.

>>382543
tooth stop reading wincest

>>382545
How do you know that, also how small

>>382547
a female friend slept with him. we used to work together, it was just stupid gossip about coworkers. i felt pretty bad about it because everyone was making fun of him. its not like he can fucking help it.

>>382548
Oh, lord, she might just be pissed at him because bad breakup or something. Don't believe it unless you see it yourself at room temperature.

So uh

Whatever happened to Ram? I haven't seen him post in quite some time. Just curious.

>>382550
His mother finally made good on her promises

Actually, I don't know

For the first time in my life, I feel true love. For the first time in my life. In 20 years of my life. Not puppy love, not sexual desire, true fucking love. And it's made me snap.

I'm clinging to this even though the other person doesn't *quite* feel the same way. Fuck it makes me want to scream. There is ONE FUCKING WALL keeping this from being perfect and I've already smashed every other one. Someone like this may never come around again.

>>382553
good luck

>>382550
he made a break for it and is currently staying in a hostel with nothing more than a backpack. the only time he uses the internet is when he goes to the library to search for jobs, and plus4 is blocked.

(i hope)

>>382548
obligatory question of how teeny is teeny weeny

>>382558
it's actually pretty average. i was mostly joking. and let's be real, no amount of inches would make me break up with my boyfriend for his fucking brother and tear a family apart.

>>382559
i wasn't expecting that to be an actual variable in your decision making. you're not an idiot. love ya babe. take care of yourself, first.

who are you people?

>>382560
thanks, love.

(I really should have seen this all coming anyways.)

>>382561
i kno u

>>382563
do u? hew r u?

>>382564
fakebook

http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/

this website is really good please go watch some things

>>382564
i actaully dont know how much ive talked to you under an actual name on plu4can though

>>382553

I often have those feelings towards stuff I eat.

>>382566
hey camrode

hows life?
like
other than boys?

>>382556

Hm. Well I hope that works out for him. Glad to hear he's not dead. At least it sounds like some progress is being made.

>>382568
its going good, i just have to figure out how these bitcoins work and whether or not the glue on the fly tape will kill me. There is a strange numb sensation on my tongue and I am debating calling poison control, but it could also be the jasmine tea and my hypochondria. It's okay, though, poison control is pretty cool when you call them at one in the morning with a bizarre, long story about how you think you got a little bit of something in your mouth or oh god you might have just inhaled something; are you gonna die tonight?????

>>382570
did you find a place without having a set salary

cos being a freelancer
and actually wanting to move to seattle or the west coast or at least a big city
thatd really help

>>382564
everyone loves dick grayson
especially when he's ferrous fellow

and you're talking to yo gurl paula there

>>382571
you mean like a place to live? we actually moved into a house that has been a marijuana growing house for the past couple of years - so it's pretty dl. the owners live in hong kong, and the landlord never visits. only one person who lives here is actually supposed to be living here, and we just keep rent paid. housing is easy if you know the right people.

>>382561
fuck if i know

>>382564
hi

>>382575
love u 2

>>382577
hi bee

btw I'm making this tomorrow

>gouda
>asparagus
>I'm adding peaches

because I love my chinese cartoons

>>382573

ah

i jelly, dude.

from the sound of it, shits good.

>[05:16] ninja1 has joined #plus4chan
>[05:17] ninja1 has left irc.rizon.net ()

wtg ninja

>>382582

I don't know any of you notbard people

>>382583

Oh my god, I don't know why but finding out Raven-Symone is a lesbian is the cutest thing I've heard in a while.

>>382588

Wasn't she also the actress who when asked what made her want to lose 15 replied with something along the lines of "Because I was sick of people talking" or something?

Either way she seems like a cool lady.

>>382588
Neat. Time to watch Disney backpedal so fast they win the Tour de France.

>>382564
Hi ya Jane.
How's the married life treating you?

>>382564
Oh hey Jane!

PS putting peaches on pizza is fucking stupid don't do it unless you grill them first

>>382274
wait now she's not so sure. we've got fucking schroedingers uterus over here

>>382595
jeepers

>>382553
Good luck, anon. I hope you succeed.

>>382595
shes jerkin your gherkin

>>382595
Has she actually gone to a doctor yet?

goddammit i had a really bad case of the too-excited-about-sleep to nap, too tired to get up.

i hate it. worst prize.

I really miss coming here.

>>382592
I got married? This is news.

>>382593
Hi Tiki!

>>382610
Oops, my mistake. Sorry.
Unless you want to be forced into a quicky marriage to make me correct. ...maybe?

>>382609
Your welcome here any time Thirteen.

>>382610
I actually remember you announcing this in a past SYM, around 2011-2012.

Is it just me, or does this look like they're doing the dinosaur?

>>382622
I see the Dinosaur, but I get a Timewarp feel from the picture.

>>382622

theyre doing the creep

>that feeling when you finally block and delete someone who has been annoying you for a while

>>382625
>>382623
>>382623

>>382607
she's going some time this week and then its finally all over

we were on holiday alone and she was probably really missing her kids when she decided she wated to keep it. but now she's back to screaming 4-year-old reality she's hada change of heart

Welp, no one warned me there wasn't going to be any water. I guess it's pretty neat in it's own right, but I wanted some instant oatmeal.

i don't know if i miss my ex or if i just miss having someone to be emotionally and physically intimate with. i think about kissing and cuddling and sharing a bed with him all the time but is it really about him or is it just the kissing and cuddling and bedsharing? either way, feels batman.

i still have all of his pictures but i don't know what to do with them. i'm not going to delete them but i can't share them with anyone either.

In about an hour I head into the mountains to my uncle's cabin to spend three days with family and extended family.

I'm not a big family guy, I don't like medium-to-large crowds (and I have a very large extended family, though not all will be there), I don't like outdoors. Only reason I'm going is that I really need a change of pace from sleep-work-TF2-sleep. My sister might need someone to drive her back on Tues night, though, so if that's the case I have a great excuse and then I take Wed to just be alone.

But, if you don't hear from me in a week, I've likely been eaten by a bear; in this case, bard gets my trip.

>>382632
Its just the kissing and cuddling. You're only giving the feeling his face.

I know.
I've been there.
;_;

>>382634
ugh it was such a nice face too. ugh ugh i could be in spain right now drinking 2 euro bottles of wine and smooching him and complaining about it being too hot instead i'm stuck here signing onto the brew and being vaguely sweaty and sad ugh ughhhhhhh.

>>382635
Yknow I have a friend that looks just like him too.
I think you've seen him on my facebook at some point.

The girls at school called him Iker cos they said he looked like Casillas.

>>382615
Really? Well I'm glad I didn't end up marrying him.

i don't have much to complain about tonight.
so...
what's the opposite of a good solid /baw/?

>>382638
...m-me t-too...

>tfw interpersonal misunderstanding that you can't fix
>and it's eating away at you inside
>always in the back of your mind
hahaha kill me

Vegas was a mistake.

fuck Vegas.

>>382642
to clarify, I'm talking about real vegas

new vegas however is a boat made of fun

he unblocked me on facebook
what is he doing

>>382644
He wants the P

>>382642
That's why they make you sign an NDA when you go in.

>>382641
I feel this way about pretty much every interaction I have with anyone ever. I try to be nice and helpful and encouraging to people I genuinely like, and it just pisses people off, and I wonder why I bother existing anymore.

Arm still hurts, but it's better than it was last week.

I need to go out and buy dinner. I don't wanna. It's so hot out.

o my kokoro

>go out and get real, good food

or

>stay in get even more junk food

mind you are not helping

sigh

i don't know what the fuck.

i feel motivated
but i dont want to do anything
or maybe its the other way around
i want to do lots of stuff
but i'm not motivated
I feel like I have a deadline.
And I have plans and shit. But I dont know what the fuck...

;_;
also, come on, who took freeglass on tumblr, guys? I need that adresse for that plan i just mention. I've already heartily apologized to the people who were due and i'm taking therapy and i need it guys pls

Oh hey, free tethering on my phone and we get 3G service up here. So, if I get eaten by a bear, they'll be able to check their e-mail afterward.

>>382654
Put a "-" or something between them?

>>382654
this is why i make placeholder blogs for when i change names, etc.

I didn't really 'change' url
more like said 'welp gonna kill myself anyway idgaf'

just seriously
i'm not mad or anything. if anyone has it please let it go. i'll be very thankful.
i dunno i mean
ive been under alot of stress recently or

how about this!
free comissions for a month! :D

DID I FIX MY OWN SEVERED COAXIAL CABLE LIKE A BOSS? YES SIR I FUCKING DID

>>382658
I'll bite. What do you usually enjoy drawing, Freeg? I prefer requesting something I think would be up specific artists' alleys.

i know i haven't hit rock bottom because even when i comfort myself with thoughts of the sweet release of death i still make contingency plans...

>>382661
People, usually.
I'm not really any good drawing robots, or animals or landscapes.
Just people is what I do well enough.

>>382662
Don't worry, you'll get there. You'll bounce back, this time.

Shit, my sister managed to get a replacement. There goes my out. I might leave tomorrow anyway, I drove here on my own.

Nothing interests me here and I am terribly bored. Next time I'll just skip the family gathering.

>>382661
>>382663
So if you're that sick fuck that masturbates to robots with girl's heads inplanted into them against their will
youre shit out of luck mate.

>>382666

>>382666
And even if you arent youre still shit out of luck cos that there is a fat fucking wanker that cant fucking draw for shit.
hes fucking lucky he hasnt fucking killed himself.
that shit.

>>382666
>>382669

wait
lmfao seriously?
c'mon dude dont be pathetic i can see what youre doing

I feel this thread could use chubby puppies.

>>382675
I was feeling exhausted and shitty before this picture. Now I'm still exhausted, but I feel happier.

>on the bus
>spot hot dad and his baby son in a pram
>being brightly coloured and generally jolly looking, the baby keeps staring at me and doing the cute laugh babies do
>wave at him, pull faces, etc, he keeps laughing
>the dad moves a little closer, smiles, my kokoro goes doki
>"i think he likes you"
>laugh really awkwardly
>"so do cats buy i'm definitely a dog person"
>he just looks at me blankly with this pinned-on smile for a moment
>moves back again
>spend the rest of the journey staring out the window

>>382677
>wtf is wrong with you

>>382677

>all that spaghetti

Holy fuck Tooth, what happened.

>>382679
i pretend to be all cool and whatever but really i am just a turgid spaghetti monster

>>382680
i haven't seen spaghetti creep so slowly out of pockets until now.
that's the part where you change subject HARD and say "hi! i'm _____. i'm good with kids and better with dads." or something. better to crash a train trying to save it than watch it fall off a bridge.

>>382677
"Hello Ms. Tooth, I'm random stranger trying to make conversation"

"FUCK YOU SHITKNOBBLING COCKSMITH"

>>382681
half of my stories are about the misadventures of being a socially awkward extrovert, surely you must have noticed by now.

>>382683
i know. i know. this isn't about how to fix the past. it's about what to do next time batman makes you pull a boner.

>>382677
I have never gotten why people get all uptight about this like I am actually a dog person cats and babies may like me but unless that little mutant is barking all it's getting is a wave and a smile and if it is barking I'm going to throw dog treats at it

waaah my baby is not a dog and the scary lady doesn't like it fuckin deal

>>382685
what?

Ah, I really dislike myself sometimes.

>>382663
Alright. Can I email you refs of my OC's? They're fairly tame, nothing extreme or Mary Sue-y (I hope) about their appearances. I don't know what fandoms you're in, so I'm hesitant to ask you about fanart.

Our neighbor that's BFFs with my mom is in jail for 2 months.

Is it bad that one of my first thoughts was "Ooooh she just went to the store. Can't have all that food rotting in her fridge for 2 months...." I think I'm beginning to accept that I'm kind of awful. OH WELL.

Whew.
You ever just read something that hits you square in the face in just the way you needed to snap you out of something?
I feel like I've been coming out of various stages of PTSD for months... with bits of my own identity and ways of thinking locked away that whole time...

and maybe... i hope... the last bit I needed to put myself back together (better than when i was first broken) came from a single panel of dialogue in a comic.

i'm not always a good person. in fact, i'm not even a nice person. i try to be. sometimes i just am, but not always. and that's okay. and for all the people that think i'm good... who call me things like perfect and great... that doesn't do it for me. why? why would I want to distance myself from that? reject that?

what i've always wanted and for a little while even had ... if only for a moment... was someone to see what just is in me... who i am... seeing my hidden motives and actions... and who loves me all the same because she knows my intentions.

i think that's what most everyone wants from love.... but my epiphany wasn't really about love. it was about who i am... about not always striving to be this ideal caricature of myself... this thing i keep telling myself i need to be.... it's still a part of me... but that's not who i am. all this training, the retooling of my thinking habits, the internal and external progress i'm driving for... that's all still there and all still worth it... but that's not because i'm trying to finally become the good person i'm supposed to be:

it's because i choose to do good... or bad... or whatever it is i want to do and be how i want to be... because I've already reached a point in my life where i know there's no such thing as good and bad anyway. there's only doing what you believe in. and that image of a good guy... that persona i try so hard to maintain... that lovable and funny hero... is only a fraction of me. it's the safe side... the side that errs on maxims and trust. it's the simple bit.

i'm... so much more complex than that. one of my favorite terms is the word "daywalker"... like Marvel's Blade... someone who can walk seamlessly between both worlds. i think when we're all at our best... that's what we end up becoming... badass motherfuckers with a heart of gold who can navigate all kinds of terrain and get shit done.

i'm not nice. i'm not even good. not really. all i've ever wanted to do was the right thing... even if it was the hard thing. and sometimes... that means getting your hands dirty and being a shitty person about it.

i feel better already. huge weight off my chest. i can stop acting the part. i didn't even know i was forcing it so much. i'd just been so lost.

>>382693
o cool maybe i'm a sociopath \o/

>>382692
>>382692
You sound like you have schizophrenia/autism (pieces of self, acting a part etc) or ASPD/AVPD (not a good person etc) more than PTSD.
PTSD is pretty specific, and none of the symptoms fit.

If I had to do a wild guess I'd say high functioning autistic with AVPD, since it fits all the symptoms.

>>382694
Sorry, rewrote typo.

>>382692
Congratulations, Shinji!

>>382698
see now this is the kind of asshole response that daddy likes

>>382695
idk I hate using the term autistic to describe anyone because I'm not a doctor

different anon but I go through a lot of the same shit and I can empathize, any time anyone's feeling depressed I wanna help them out

we're here for you anon

>>382699
Man, you're just caught up in the unreality of ideals. It sucks, but I'm happy you have a place to vent.

>>382700
>>382701

>free Xbone spam ad at the bottom
Anonexbone

Actually I'd like a free Anonexbone to play with, but I've heard it's shy.

>>382701
thank you

I'm just having a rough time myself, and have for awhile, and it hurts to see other people go through the same or similar shit

it's unrealistic to assume that I can help people not fall into the pit I did but if I can sorta make things easier for them for five minutes it makes me feel better

>>382695
IDK I really kind of identify with the PTSD thing. I feel like the era of the "Wild Web" is really coming to a close now, and a lot of things are adjusting to catch up, a lot of fundamental changes happening behind the scenes now. But amidst all that, we have this generation of users who've been a little shell-shocked by their experiences using the Internet, and being kind of the generation that first had to deal with this unfettered information network.

There have been few things in history as horizon-expanding available to so many people as the Internet has, but the expansion of those horizons is not always pleasant or without real world consequence. A certain level of social ostracization seems to follow a number of internet users, arguably because they just do not spend time socializing like non-internet users do. Certainly, communication online is a form of social contact, but the medium is different. Socializing with people is a different game, one that has to be learned, and there are many different perspectives on that. Getting more in tune with reality might actually be a recovery experience.

>>382706
oh believe me, I know, I've been trying

irl people either say 'hey, I really wanna see you, but I'm dealing with a lot of family stuff' and they go hang out with everyone else, or they're like, 'we're just classmates, I'm not here to make friends', or 'I already have friends, don't even attempt it, you're not cool enough' or inane shit like that

>taking my driving test today
>5 years after failing the first time

Bitch I'm gonna own this test. I might puke though...

>>382700
There's no stigma associated with autism and the spectrum is huge. Some corporations actually seek out autistic people as employees.

>>382706
PTSD is really specific though, and the internet doesn't cause the kind of physical reaction that lights up the HPA axis.

You're thinking of some type of developmental disorder which makes it hard to interact in one medium after you've been immersed in a completely different one.

>>382714
Fair enough. I just don't like the whole "anyone socially awkward is autistic" stigma, that's all.

I think it depends. Some people have been cyber-stalked or cyber-bullied, and I can see getting PTSD from that. Having to ask people what they just linked you to, because people have linked you to shock porn, viruses, etc. in the past. What friends need to realize in that case, though, is "It's not your fault I don't entirely trust you."

>>382714
The thing about PTSD and the Internet is that some Google engineers who camp google networks for illicit content like child porn and gore videos, they're claiming PTSD-like psychological damage based on having to view and review that content repeatedly. For a majority of Internet users, I don't think there would be that much or that great a damage but for a few of us,especially those that remember the good bad old days of places like Stile Project and such, there may be some actual mental trauma there for which nobody can speak off because it's just so off the beaten path when it comes to therapy or dealing with trauma. Like how do you measure the psychological effect of watching a petite asian woman vomiting on a dick when you're twelve? There's a realm of experience here that I'm not actually comfortable with because I feel like in going to a psychologist, even one that specializes in Internet related issues, they're not going to really appreciate that either. The lack of real world socialization is a contributing factor but it clouds what could be genuine damage in some cases.

>>382708
The unfortunate thing for men is apparently that socialization gets harder for various reasons as people get older. The thing is, as time goes on people buckle down about what they want out of life; what kind of friends, what kinds of people. When you're trying to make friends in your 20s or 30s, you're not forced together with people anymore and they aren't forced together with you, and socialization is based almost purely on perceived worth as a social being. People don't want to be around you if you don't make them happy anymore to a certain extent, or if you don't provide avenues to happiness. It's shitty to say that everyone should be treated equally then admit that people are generally treated by their perceived worth, but there you go. We might just be the generation that has to go out to all the bars on our lonesome.

I'm getting real sick and tired of the poem/myth overtones I apply to life but don't know if it's a problem or how to stop.

>>382716
I'm legitimately getting terrified by this prospect because I'm almost 25 and still I have nobody I could actually call a friend outside my immediate family. Only a few people willing to tolerate me, when I come along with them, but none of it's reciprocal.

I've done fuckall this summer. Like. I wasted it.

Hell, I did more than fuckall.
I've gone back two fucking spaces in my career.
I'm fucking alienating people based on my need to destroy myself and any contact i have.
Sigh. I just wanna apologize to those people.
And I just wanna rebuild on top of what I burned down from myself.

>>382689
Well, I kindof meant the 'free comissions' thing for whoever it was that took my old URL.
But sure. I'll gladly take your request, anon.
I could use a little waker upper.

And I know its just a request, but I accept tips and stuff. Its entirely up to you.

holy shit guys just because someone is struggling to deal with identity issues doesn't mean they've got clinical levels of psychosis

ever heard about the otherwise sane people who were put secretly in psych wards? you put everything in the context of mental illness and everyone looks sick... because everyone's got neuroses and symptoms look like whatever story fits.

Meeting another nerd your same age and gender who loves all the same semi-obscure shit you do within walking distance a week before you're moving to the other side of the country.

Welp, at least she has a tumblr?

>>382721
>Meeting another nerd your same age and gender who loves all the same semi-obscure shit you do

Last time that happened to me I absolutely loathed that person.
I think I'm one of those people with that survival instinct that goes 'if you ever encounter your clone, you must survive. there can only be one. kill them.'

It hasn't done me any favours socially.

>>382722
We're not clones personality-wise, though.

>cute girl from my school i never spoke to but then bonded over having basically the same taste in everything on tumblr messages me on monday (you know the one, ferro)
>'are you free this weekend?'
>oh boy you bet i am
>'okay, i'll message you closer to the time'
>nothing yet
>everypictureofbertsweatingprofuselycollage.png

she's really pretty and funny and has a great taste in everything ugh i want to be friends but at the same time i'm like wow caitlin don't be weird now

>>382716
I'm not male, though...

I never really had friends as a kid. Neither did my parents. They always said no when someone wanted to hang out ("everyone that likes you is a manipulative drug addict slut"), and it was rare that anyone actually did. I was never enough like anyone. I was too weird for anyone to do anything but bully me. My parents weren't sympathetic or listened to me, and then they got mad that I never spent time with them. I don't know how to make friends.

>>382724
please hit that in some way shape or form if you can because that would be living the dream

>>382724
>cute girl from my school i never spoke to but then bonded over having basically the same taste in everything on facebook and I start messaging each other
>think we shouldve spoken more in school
>decide we wanna hang out
>"Oh, I live in New York now, so."

Well, I made it back. Honestly, I would have rather just stayed home by my lonesome for three days; I'm not a family, outdoors, or gathering person in the least.

I also slept like shit up there, moreso than usual.

>>382726
i'm like 86% sure she's straight and wouldn't be in to me and also being a lesbian in my hometown would probably be exhausting it's shitty enough to just exist as it is here

>>382728

SHE WANTS TO FUCK

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

>>382731
Nah, she's dating some punker tattoo bearded bloke.
But she and I get along real nicely.

>>382730
>A Living Being
>Not into tooth

>>382732
Maybe she's a robutt trying to keel tooth.

What is it like to belong? Or at least have a sense of belonging? "Roots"?

WELP i definitely have mice considering i just saw one rush into a small hole in the back of my utility room wall. shit.

>>382735
its like a dead body but warmer

>>382732
... you're young. so let me explain you a thing... flirting is not about putting a flag in the ground or raising someone up onto a pedestal or putting them down. it's about acknowledging something real about that person that's just so obvious to you that you gotta sing it. it's about taking a paint brush and showing the muse that he/she is already art. it's about doing it in as few strokes as possible because all it takes is a sketch to let the mind fill in the rest of the color.

>>382730
why are you scots all the way up in scotland where i can't just drive. this is a sham.

>>382735
make roots. or... sometimes... realize you already have some. having people is like a baseline security... which is good when you need it and altogether troublesome when you don't.

>>382731
this sounds about right, but i don't think he'll be able to get over there. i hope i'm wrong.

>>382738
what is it with people thinking all i want to do is flirt

cant i joke for once
cant i make a caricature of someone's characteristics

>>382739
oh a joke. haha. i get jokes.

here's how a joke works:
1. setup (either already there or something you make)
2. audience expectation
3. harmless violation of expectation (punchline)

what you did was:

1. statement
2. compliment
3. ...?
4. profit

i'll stop being a douchebag and take you at your word, though. i don't always read people's intentions that well. but i'm usually not wrong

>>382736
> utility room

They are obviously using that room to build robots to take over the house. There's only one answer; blow up the house. Blow it all up!

>>382738
>>382740
What an asshole...

>>382740
okay, seriously what the fuck

s not a fucking comic strip or a knock knock joke
its a fucking obvious exaggeration for the sake of humour based on our interactions
also
>saging a SYM

>>382738
>flirting is not about putting a flag in the ground or raising someone up onto a pedestal or putting them down. it's about acknowledging something real about that person that's just so obvious to you that you gotta sing it. it's about taking a paint brush and showing the muse that he/she is already art. it's about doing it in as few strokes as possible because all it takes is a sketch to let the mind fill in the rest of the color.

...
What about that is flirting.
Thats writing a lame socially awkward high school love letter, not flirting

youre all frickin nerds

>>382746
get pooped on

>>382720
>clinical levels of psychosis
Nice Hyperbole. Maybe you're right and it's a bit over dramatic, but there is some evidence that all this free culture is not without cost, be it actual trauma or just the passing trauma of witnessing horrific things. Either way, it is not something frequently discussed, but I identified a little with the preceding post, with trying to balance the real world and the Internet, what's okay to talk about. Or like that kid who made a fake facebook of a dead person in a /b/ raid and told the father that they were a terrible person. There can be shit you do and see on here that leaves you much more affected than everyone's attitude about the internet suggests.

>>382725
I said men because that's what the article I was thinking of focused on. Socialization in general gets a liiiiiitttle more difficult once you get out of High School, really. College is a nice ideal time for most U.S. students to get some lessons in socialization but they won't help much if you are really trying to do real shit (though doing real shit can lead you to some of the strongest connections you'll ever have, if you really break your back at it).

Beyond that? Bars. Church. Hobbies. Meetups. Craigslist. IDK man walk in there and make them think you're funny.

>>382746
bea teach this person to flirt
you are good at man
flirting isnt some 80's powerballad song
is it

>>382749
If you can play the power ballad with your genitals then yes

>>382738
>... you're young. so let me explain you a thing... flirting is not about putting a flag in the ground or raising someone up onto a pedestal or putting them down. it's about acknowledging something real about that person that's just so obvious to you that you gotta sing it. it's about taking a paint brush and showing the muse that he/she is already art. it's about doing it in as few strokes as possible because all it takes is a sketch to let the mind fill in the rest of the color.
I thought flirting was about getting someone's vibe, figuring out that they're the sort of person who is willing to play, and then verbally sparring with them. Like mocking them, only where the body language and tone of voice makes it clear that it's not actual mockery but playful jabs and that they're supposed to be taking swipes back at you.

>>382751
actually yea this is a better example of flirting in general

i was describing how to start flirting from a "cold open" with a compliment rather than a pick up line or whatever

>>382751
yyyyeah...
Its really just a casual sort of interaction where you show interest casually.
Dunno.

>>382752
>i was describing how to start flirting from a "cold open" with a compliment rather than a pick up line or whatever
still doesnt fucking know what flirting is

>>382754
i'd like to see your credentials on the matter.

Verb:
Behave as though attracted to or trying to attract someone, but without serious intentions

You can basically go eat a bag of dicks if that suits you.