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>>4375 aw, yeah. I kinda regret all that stuff, I just get super chatty when I'm high or drunk for some reason and my fingers just start to fly on the keyboard, and then I've hit post and I feel weird taking off the name now that I've started using it. I don't think it's cool, I think I've damaged myself. Shit happened to me in high school, I was too weak and buried myself in weed and other drugs to get by and I'm trying to get over that. It's not something to be proud of, but I end up doing it, talking about it and well, what can you do. I keep coming back to it with the excuses of not being able to sleep, a stressful week, wanting to enjoy my few nights off... the homebrewing has actually helped me by making me appreciate alcohol - when it takes so long and I put so much care into it I'm not gonna get drunk and waste it in a night - and it's something positive I can work at and do good at. When I fail things, when I'm feeling trapped, I gotta just forget myself, and that's when I get drunk. also, I felt silly writing so much about alcohol in my post as if I know what I'm talking about, so I tossed that in as a disclaimer. It's ridiculous and I'm pathetic.
wow, tl;dr no one cares. But thanks for being straight with me. I know I got shit to deal with and the internet really isn't the place for this!
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